John1:29-42
Today we hear Jesus’ first words in John’s Gospel.
- We are just 29 verses into the Gospel of John and what we heard already is that Jesus is the Word of God made flesh…
- That all things came into being through him…
- That he is the light that shines in the darkness…
- That he is the lamb of God that takes away the sin of the world…that he is God the son.
- And the first words that Jesus says are…what are you seeking…
I don’t know about you…but that feels like a direct and personal question for the son of God to ask…
- I mean…right off the bat? …at least warm up with some small talk.
- What are you seeking? He asks…or in some translations…What do you want?
- What do you want? And what are you seeking? …are very different yet related questions.
When I was in my twenties…I thought what I really wanted was a great education and a dream job making lots of money.
- But what I was really seeking was being loved for who I was…
- And authentic and genuine connections to other human beings.
- And…at times…I was so distracted by not getting what I wanted…
- That I was unaware when my friends were really being present to me…
- And I was receiving what I was really seeking.
- Love and connection.
When I was called to pastor my first congregation I was scared to death and simply did not want to make dumb and stupid mistakes.
- Remember? …I was only 26 when I went to serve in my first parish…where most of my congregation were older and much wiser…
- Making me feel I was on the edge of total inadequacy.
- My four years of seminary were good…
- However…I really learned how to be an effective parish pastor in the first four years of serving in that parish…
- That congregation was a wonderful seminary.
- What I was really seeking…in that first pariah…was a genuine expression of the Gospel in a loving and authentic community.
- I was so distracted by my dumb and immature mistakes…
- That I was unaware of how the thing I was really seeking…
- An Authentic loving community imbedded in the Gospel was unfolding around me.
What I am getting at is this:
- We would do well…when we desire something specific…to be as honest as possible…about what it is we are really seeking.
- And to notice how the specifics of what we think we want…
- Can distract us from how…what we are seeking…might be right in front of us.
So…Jesus’ first words are What are you seeking? And they answer “where are you staying?
- I have always thought that John’s disciples…the ones who Jesus asked this question of…
- Must have been completely caught off guard…
- And so…they came up with a dumb question.
- Because why…if Jesus the Christ asks what you are looking for…
- Would you blurt out: so…what hotel are you staying at?
- I always thought that was a dumb question.
But in Greek…the original text…it is not just whose house are you crashing at…
- It is…where do you abide?
- Where does your spirit remain Jesus?
- Where does your heart dwell Jesus?
- That is a lot closer than…what hotel are you at.
- And Jesus’ answer is simply…come and see.
- Jesus does not say what are you looking for…
- And then tell us to grab a pencil because he’s about to give us a lecture on theology.
- He gives an invitation: Come and see.
There is a basic expectation to Jesus’ invitation to…come and see.
- Namely…you must use your senses.
- You must be present in the actual moment.
- Do not be lost in what it is you think you want…
- That you miss what it is you are really seeking.
- Because this is not about theology.
- It does not happen in theory.
- You cannot go and see where Jesus is by reading it in a book.
- You must experience it like those first disciples did.
- But that can take practice.
When I began my ministry at the first church I served…
- We were deciding what to put on our advertising…no websites back then.
- We realized that most churches had a What we believe
- We toyed with that a bit…
- But finally…someone said:
- Why don’t we just have it say:
- If you want to know what we believe…come and see…what we do.
So…someone asked: What do we do?
- And the responses came…
- We practice seeing Jesus.
- We practice abiding in him.
- We receive forgiveness of sins…
- And we hear the promises of God not because what happens here in this place is the all-in-all…
- But so that we can see Christ when we are not here.
- So that we can be disciples out there in a world that needs some forgiveness and promise and grace and beauty.
Some of us struggle with our faith and I do not want to take that away from us.
- But…if you are here…God has taken that desire within you…to seek for something deeper…
- That desire to find meaning…
- That desire to be loved…
- And has made us come here to see…
- So that we…like those first disciples…can abide in Christ.
Abiding in Christ is disarmingly real…because of how it demands our presence and our attention.
- Abiding in Christ means living in the fullness of joy when every other voice calls us to live in despair.
- Abiding in Christ means loving the other precisely when they are least loveable…
- So that we can stay there with them until they feel completely loved.
Abiding in Christ means allowing ourselves to love this broken world so much that we desire to see it made whole.
- Abiding in Christ means that we find holiness in the ordinary…the common and the forgotten.
- Abiding in Christ means being in the moment.
- Abiding in Christ means forgiving people and praying for those who persecute us.
- Abiding in Christ means feeling the sting of real grace…
- The kind of grace we could never deserve and could never live without.
- Abiding in Christ means going and seeing and being surprised by what it all means.
Abiding in Christ is like this very moment.
- The light in the sanctuary…the sound of the music…
- The presence of strangers…the promise of bread and wine…
- The longing in all of us for that which is real and beautiful and of God.